Tuesday, May 20, 2008

hello, i am back and in a really awful mood. and i learned new stuff about myself. i think i am a bitch,i have been only thinking about people's negative side and keep pressing on it until they could not take it.
I AM SORRY FOR THOSE WHO I HAVE HURT, WITHOUT ME KNOWING.
EVERYONE HAS THEIR POSITIVE SIDE AND NEGATIVE ONES TOO,NO ONE'S PERFECT.
SO I AM APOLOGISING,
cause after i heard what i was like, i totally went to think about it,and i guess i have hurt many many people without knowing,and its disgusting.
anyway, the car ride home from parkway last night, was a tearful one.when you started saying you were no good,i could hear it from your voice that you broke down,i did not want to look at you,but turn away and tear myself too,i did not want to clean it away cause if i did, you would know i did too.and did you know, Laura did too,cause you did not want to accept the present,and also my present, i bet you don't even know where is it!you want us to tell you straight in your face,and not telling other people(but she is not even other people,she is your sister)behind your back.
you were saying how you were not up to standard, but in my eyes you are the GREATEST! cause no one can replace you, and i am sorry if i have said stuff about you without knowing, and whatever i say, at that moment its to vent my anger somewhere,but i did not know she took it so hard and remember everything.and use it back on you,its unfair. but i know she want the best for you and she trying her every best to help you but, you don't have much time if you can realise.so i really want you to stop it and start afresh and don't ever touch it again.
i read people's blog, and i see they keep talking about their dad, and to tell you the truth, you all should love your dad while he is still near you, cause i only see my dad like only once a week,and if he is on business trips i don't even get to see him at all.so appreciate your dads while you can, cause i don't wish to see you people regretting when they are gone(i mean like not there for you when you need him,and not die)and also, i envy people when they talk about their dads,its like, i want him to be there like every other happy family, okay maybe not everyone has a happy family,and i am one of them.
and its a bad year for me, everything is not in the right path,so
to my best friends and family and friends,
thank you for being there for me when i needed you people,
thank you for bringing happy memories to my life i really appreciate it,
a really BIG thank you to all of you .
and for forgiving me when i have neglected everyone, i feel bad.

DNKY[i think its this song]
and, best friend i really really need you right now you,cause you know me all too well to be forgotten, and i should spend more time with you.
also i feel guilty when i said out loud that i got family gathering this Sunday in the hall today,cause i gave Natassia all the high hopes about going to see her confirming.SORRY NATASSIA!but in the end,guess what i go all the dates mixed up!and i am FREE this SUNDAY!

Natassia, A.K.A. singing monotonously and anti chilli buddy, ALSO NATALIE WONG intro me this song,
i need your loving hands to come and pick me up,
and every night i miss you i can just look up cause i know the stars are holding you,

Tonight

I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and
I can't get up I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you sat
and told me about your Jesus
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here...

I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you
tonight

I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you
tonight

i saw cute little stuff toys ,but i think i got it all wrong.

Teach me the definition of true love.

@ 2:49:00 AM

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